Wow, words cannot express how I feel from day to day.
We have been so blessed to have my parents open up their home to us while Nathan is studying for the bar. The support and friendship from my parents has meant so much while Nathan has been gone. The kids LOVE Gampa and Gamma's house and the big backyard with lots of fun "kid stuff". My Mom has been such a great example to me in getting things done. There is not another place in the world I would rather be right now ... And then the baby kicks. The anxiety tries to move in. The fear of not knowing ...
Trust. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Everyday I'm looking for jobs for Nathan and I know that God has the perfect job for us. However, I do still lean on my own understanding and it fails me every time. Our baby boy is due in October and Nathan gets bar results back in October and so far there is no job on the table.
We have most of our stuff in boxes, and have settled in our temporary home and God has provided our every need! Still, I am reminding myself daily to trust Him.
I have seen his faithfulness time, and time again in our lives and I'm excited to see what doors he opens up. However, I am still human and I still deal with anxiety, fear and trust.
I'm sure this is common for a lot of us wives of law students. For those who have either gone through this already (and seen God's plan) and those of you about to go through it in the next couple years, and those of us going through it now.
GOD REMAINS FAITHFUL all the time!! Besides, it's only money, right??? ;)
At the end of the day, I see the joy in my kids eyes and I realize that I want the very best for them. And this is how the Lord feels about us as well :)
